Loneliness

Loneliness has been a huge part of my life this week. On Monday the 4th Ben flew to Sydney for work, so I was left by myself until the 22nd. It was and still is a bit nerve racking being in this house on my own. Every sound was 10x louder than usual, every creak made me jump and almost every light was turned on so I didn't have to face the dark until I went to bed. I locked every door hours before I went to bed and still I did not feel safe in this house once. I have never had so little sleep in my life, hours of tossing and turning to get to sleep and then waking time and time again during my slumber only to wake early the next day.

The time difference between Perth and Sydney hasn't helped with anything. When I wake up Ben is eating his lunch, When I am having lunch Ben is getting ready to go and have dinner and when I am having dinner Ben is in Bed. It makes it quite hard to speak to one another with having to work and everything taking up the time we would have to speak. Oh well only 2 more weeks of it until he returns home, then we don't have to worry about it.

Work wasn't as exciting as it would usually be, I felt excluded most days and got frustrated easy from lack of sleep. The heat and humidity of which Melbourne usually doesn't have at this time of year has made me a little ill with constant headaches also.

Driving has been interesting, having to find my way around now is weird but exciting and I get to see more of the suburbs around me now. Only 4 months and 18 hours of my logbook until I can go for my P's. YAY!!! I will then be able to go anywhere whenever I like, as we have been looking at cars and have found 1 we like, and are half way to getting.

Karate is improving, I am getting close to my next grading (blue belt lol) and have been staying behind to get some extra coaching from my Sensei, which have helped me quite a lot. I am feeling quite confident with my Kata's and am progressing rapidly (according to my Sensei).

Today has been a wonderful day, I had Nan and Gramps (Ben's) visit me. They came in and had a coffee and a nice little chat, and a little look at the house. We then went out to the PK Tavern for lunch. I ordered the most delicious Chilli Honey Chicken (Tender pieces of chicken sautéed in a sweet chilli & honey glaze served with scented rice). Nan had the Fresh Fish of the Day (Barramundi with a side of chips). And Gramps had the Seafood Selection (A beer battered selection of prawns & fish with crumbed scallops & calamari served with chips and homemade tartare sauce). All of our meals also came with a side of salad. It was such a lovely lunch, and we are going to do something next week , Can't wait!.