A sailor went to sea, sea, sea.

Now if you've been on my facebook lately you would know that ben went to sea yesterday on his way to hawaii. It was so hard to see him go, but even harder to come home to an empty house and bed. Without my family near me to support me isn't helping me get through this and I am finding it hard not to cry all the time. Being on the other side of the country to your family and close friends with a limited amount of people that you know makes living all day to day things difficult. It gets so lonely at night and I wish I had someone I could just hug and make everything alright.

I miss him so much and I want my mum to be here with me she knows what I am going through and I need her right now. But with her over in Melbourne and I in Perth I don't see that happening. Life just isn't the same when he is at sea, and I cannot wait for the day when he won't have to.

Training Takes Time

When you hear the word training, what is the first thing that your mind thinks of?

Wow, where did that donut come from around my waist... Think I need to work it off.

Man I can't even do a lap of the footy oval... Think I need to get fit.

Work, work, work... I don't have the time to train.

I need more training for the job I want.

or do you think Can't be bothered, Too hot, Too cold, Too busy or I don't need to.

What do you need to train for?

A marathon,

A charity race,

Sports event,

A specific job,

A dance recital.

But does your mind think of Toilet training/ House training?

Toilet training Children takes a lot of work, with getting them used to sitting on the toilet during nappy changes and then learning from the accidents that happen, knowing that the feeling of warm urine running down their leg is not a good thing.

Puppy toilet training is pretty much taking them outside and just standing with them until they go and then praising them and/or giving them a treat. This is the frustrating part, other than their accidents inside, having to wait around until they do something take a bit of time; sometimes time that you don't have.

3 Weeks ago we bought a maltese shitzu puppy. Sasha is grasping the term Sit but still hasn't got a hold on the toilet training yet. At first I thought she didn't want to go outside but later found out it wasn't that, because she walks out by herself all the time. So now I just have to wait and hope TIME works it out. So here is a couple of photos to keep you entertained.

Sasha when we first brought her home.

Just after having her lunch

Coming to see what I am up to

Snuggling up to me whilst watching TV

Happy Birthday To me

Happy Birthday To me

Happy Birth-day Toooo meee

Happy Birthday To me

Hip Hip Hooray

Hip Hip Hooray

Hip Hip Hooray!!!

:S

Driving everyone crazy

Is officially a licensed driver (well Probationary license driver). Took a while but happened in the end and pick our brand new car up on friday. This week has been such a good week even though Ben hasn't been here to enjoy it with me I HAVE BEEN HAPPY!! Got my license, bought a new car and T.V and started back at Uni.

Even though everything is looking up and moving forward gracefully, I can't help be a little down and lonely at night. I have been getting a bit more comfortable with each day that he is gone but that won't make me less frightened by myself. The days are fine it's the nights that are the hardest... I don't have that loving person there keeping me safe. But I have to keep looking up I mean it's not forever, just now.

Just a word of warning everyone needs to either get out of my way or off the roads because I AM COMING!!! :P

I'm Back!!

Wow, it has been so long since I have written on here. I guess I just got caught up with working 3 days a week, Starting Uni back in November and kinda getting snowed under with the work (am a little out of touch with having to study again), Planning our holiday to Melbourne and actually going on it, my Zumba workouts and then in between the housework shopping and log book driving lessons.

Hmm... Getting back into a study routine has been a lot harder than I though it would be. I mean I only had 2 units this study period but I guess my organisational and time management skills need to be nourished a little more. I didn't do so well this time around but this study period I am going to organise my time a lot better.

Our trip to Melbourne was so good, I didn't want to leave. We went bowling a hell of a lot and got to know the neighbours quite well. Seeing family again was so wonderful and wish we didn't live so far away, that way we can visit more often.

Now that I have re-established a relationship with my blog again I shall be back on here more often.

Loneliness

Loneliness has been a huge part of my life this week. On Monday the 4th Ben flew to Sydney for work, so I was left by myself until the 22nd. It was and still is a bit nerve racking being in this house on my own. Every sound was 10x louder than usual, every creak made me jump and almost every light was turned on so I didn't have to face the dark until I went to bed. I locked every door hours before I went to bed and still I did not feel safe in this house once. I have never had so little sleep in my life, hours of tossing and turning to get to sleep and then waking time and time again during my slumber only to wake early the next day.

The time difference between Perth and Sydney hasn't helped with anything. When I wake up Ben is eating his lunch, When I am having lunch Ben is getting ready to go and have dinner and when I am having dinner Ben is in Bed. It makes it quite hard to speak to one another with having to work and everything taking up the time we would have to speak. Oh well only 2 more weeks of it until he returns home, then we don't have to worry about it.

Work wasn't as exciting as it would usually be, I felt excluded most days and got frustrated easy from lack of sleep. The heat and humidity of which Melbourne usually doesn't have at this time of year has made me a little ill with constant headaches also.

Driving has been interesting, having to find my way around now is weird but exciting and I get to see more of the suburbs around me now. Only 4 months and 18 hours of my logbook until I can go for my P's. YAY!!! I will then be able to go anywhere whenever I like, as we have been looking at cars and have found 1 we like, and are half way to getting.

Karate is improving, I am getting close to my next grading (blue belt lol) and have been staying behind to get some extra coaching from my Sensei, which have helped me quite a lot. I am feeling quite confident with my Kata's and am progressing rapidly (according to my Sensei).

Today has been a wonderful day, I had Nan and Gramps (Ben's) visit me. They came in and had a coffee and a nice little chat, and a little look at the house. We then went out to the PK Tavern for lunch. I ordered the most delicious Chilli Honey Chicken (Tender pieces of chicken sautéed in a sweet chilli & honey glaze served with scented rice). Nan had the Fresh Fish of the Day (Barramundi with a side of chips). And Gramps had the Seafood Selection (A beer battered selection of prawns & fish with crumbed scallops & calamari served with chips and homemade tartare sauce). All of our meals also came with a side of salad. It was such a lovely lunch, and we are going to do something next week , Can't wait!.

'Tomorrow when the war began'

Sunday was a good day... Socialisation was a key part of that day.

Ben and I went to the movies with Kayla. We saw 'Tomorrow when the war began' - it was a good movie, Ben even thought it was good (although he was continuously saying he didn't want to go and see it coz it looked like crap). We had a good time chatting heaps before hand at KFC and enjoying many laughs.

We are going to get together more often with Kayla, which I am looking forward to (MORE female interaction and socialising).

Although there hasn't been a lot happening around here lately, I feel more comfortable with my surroundings.

My new way of life is moving forward.